Just another day
So, yesterday was a very trying day. It started off okay, I got ready for work, came in on time, worked all day, and then I decided that I could really use a meeting. I realize that in order for me to keep these jobs and these great opportunities, I can't drink. Once I have a drink, it's all over as my past has proven time and time again.
So, I went to the Rio for like an hour or two to finish an article, but I didn't quite finish. So, I left my laptop and my camera and all that good stuff over there next to CC. So, I trek on out to the Rio parking lot and get in my car and it doesn't start. I figured it was the battery because it was doing that "click click" sound. Security came over rather quickly and got my car started and off I went.
I head to the meeting, which is in a questionable neighborhood, it's on Washington and Decatur. Not the best place in Vegas to hangout, but I needed a meeting and I knew my girls would be there. And, of course after the meeting, the car doesn't start. I was afraid of this. I had one of the guys pull out jumper cables and the plan was that I was going over to the Rio to get my laptop etc., I was going to leave my car running with the valet guys, run in and get my stuff, and then get my butt home ASAP. It was too late to stop anywhere and get a new battery anyway. Well, I drive for about 2 minutes and I'm at a stop light when the car completely dies. SHIT! I'm in the middle of an intersection in heels, and my work clothes and I'm on the phone with my dad who is Maryland, trying to figure out what to do. I start calling people from the meeting, nobody answers! I called like 5 people and noticed my phone was REAL close to dying. That's what I get for playing tetris during the day. That shit totally runs down the battery in my phone.
So, a random guy pulls over to help me, he has a wife and 3 kids with him, so I'm feeling pretty okay about this. He pushes me off the road into the mall parking lot - I didn't even realize I was in front of Meadows (Ghetto) Mall. He had jumper cables, but the battery was SO dead that it wouldn't even start anymore. I had to find a ride home and leave it there over night. I flagged down mall security and they were nice enough to push my car into a parking spot so that it wouldn't get towed. I called CC and him take my laptop home with him so that it wasn't in the media room all night and then I called my boss and told him I'd be late today.
I guess it's not the end of the world and I totally got through it alive, but in the past, this would have been the kind of thing that would have drove me to drink, or flip out or cry uncontrollably, or who knows.
In the end, I got a new batter today, it cost less than $100 and I wasn't even that late for work this morning.
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And, about the DUI stuff - I just want to thank all of you guys for being so supportive and for all the well wishes. It means so much!!!!!
It kind of hurts my feelings when I receive comments like this from people who don't know me at all and they don't care to understand the struggles that I've been through or the ways in which I'm trying to improve my life. I made a huge mistake and I'm taking actions to correct it.
COMMENT...
"You can delete this post if you want, but you should be ashamed of yourself for drinking and driving in this day and age. There is no excuse for that anymore with all the knowledge out there about what will happen to you if you get caught. You could of killed some kids or something! You got off way to easy in my opinion....."
I guess we should aspire to me so condescending and judgemental. Obviously he's perfect.
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14 Comments:
Interesting that he is studying Criminal Justice. I hope that doesn't mean he wants to be a cop, with his attitude. He's 'way too judgemental. Anyway, I wouldn't worry about his comment. The rest of your commenters can see that you have really turned things around, and we're happy for you.
June 20, 2007
Car troubles suck the life out of me compeltely! Arg!
Have a kick ass Hump Day!
June 20, 2007
See, if I was there in Vegas you could have called me and I would have gotten you a new battery and changed it out right there in the Mall parking lot for ya. I'm handy that way. ;-)
Carmen, don't worry about these sanctimonious pricks. They spend all their time wagging their little fingers at everybody and sitting in judgement of others. They recognize everybody's flaws but their own. They are insignificant and useless. They're the type of people that you know never to rely on for help or support cause they're too busy judging people to be of any use to them. They're very sad people.
June 20, 2007
Yeah, the heat is a killer for car batteries and they rarely seem to die in a convenient place.
June 20, 2007
I thought judgmental prick is perfect for a cop.. oh well.. Do not let him bother you.. your on the path to keeping healthy and thats all that matters now.
June 20, 2007
Gee I'm sorry that three of my close friends were killed by an idiot drunk driver.... There is no excuse to drink and drive anymore, period!! Especially in Las Vegas, the town with the second most taxis in the United States behind NYC!!! I just wanted to see an admission of guilt in your post with an "I was and idiot and will never ever do this again" or something to that effect in there. I'm sorry, I just think that drinking and driving is one of the most selfish, idiotic things anyone can do. Of course I am not perfect, and I am not saying I am. I just have a different out look on this thing having lost three very good buddies to some drinking and driving donkey.......
June 20, 2007
Jeezzz...my girlie had one of her tires pop last week then her battery died yesterday too. Must be going around ;)
I really hope it's not the alternator and was only the battery.
Chin chin!
June 20, 2007
Chad C= same ass hat who got his chat banned on Full Tilt for telling someone to "get AIDS and fucking die."
June 20, 2007
Carm,
Get your alternator checked ASAP. That is usually the problem when the car dies after it is started, especially at night (the lights run the battery down cause there's nothing charging it back up). If it is the alternator, then the battery will die again soon, probably at night. Wish I was there to help.
June 20, 2007
Happy to hear this is all resolved for you now. Anyone reading your blog for the last few months would know that you acknowledge all the issues around DUI and done everything possible to resolve it with yourself as well as the law.
Keep safe.
June 21, 2007
Ah yes, perfect people who judge the rest of us, make me want to puke. How is MiamiDon doing or did?
June 21, 2007
See? the fact that you could face a day like that without a drink shows how strong you are.
June 21, 2007
Not that he needs it, but I think I have to defend Chad a bit here. His stance at least. I honestly am dumbfounded by anyone who drinks and drives these days. There isn't any sort of excuse for it.
That said, I didn't comment becuase I haven't been reading Carmen's blog or following her life for the past few months and have no idea how she's dealt with this, what apologies or confessions she's made, etc., so I'm in no place to chastise her this late in the game.
From what I have seen, you've made big strides to turn that aspect of your life around, and I'm proud of you. I'm a big believer in second chances and it certainly looks like you've done a lot with this one. Keep it up.
June 21, 2007
Carm first you know I am available to you 24/7 if you get the urge. Not that it helps me being in NY!! Youve made great strides and since Ive walked in your shoes I know the importance of baby steps. Dealing with a car issue like you had and not needing to drink is a big accomplishment. Be proud of yourself girl.. Its called doing the next sober thing.
Chad may have lost a loved one to a Drunken Driver. Ill cut him some slack. He is genuinely a really great guy in person. I suggest you talk to him in person to air your differences of opinion next time you see him. We are all entitled to agree to disagree and harboring resentments and anger isnt good for those of us in recovery. The key is you have changed your behavior and are making amends.
IG
June 22, 2007
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