MySpace is EVIL
First and foremost - check out my Caesar's Palace Pool Review by clicking here.
Since Mookie and the clan is in town through tomorrow and they are staying at the MGM, I'll have a spankin new room key! So, of course I'm heading to the pool at the MGM this weekend. I'm so looking forward to it because look at this thing...
They have 5 pools and a lazy river - should be fun!
I'm a little torn about this myspace thing. I joined myspace a few months ago because a few of my friends are on it and they were bugging the hell out of me to join. They don't get much into the whole "blog" thing, but they love the myspace thing and after a few months of them coercing me, I finally caved in and set up an account.
I cannot tell you how many people from my past have crawled out of the woodwork and contacted me. It brings up a lot of uncomfortable memories that I'm not sure I want to deal with. I actually left Maryland for a very good reason, it was because I wanted to leave my past behind and start fresh.
There is also a side of me that has played the victim for a very long time. I focus on the negative thigns that happened to me and I forget all about the decisions I made and the awful things I did that brought these negative consequences on myself. For instance, I remember every single terrible thing that happened to me in high school. I remember what guys screwed me over, which girls talked shit about me, who dissed me, who made fun of me, who left me hanging, who picked fights with me, it's like I keep a scorecard in my brain and I carry that shit with me. So, now, I'm on this damn myspace thing and people contact me from high school and I'm thinking "you must be kidding me - you have the nerve to contact me like we are friends after what you did to me in high school". But, that was 15 years ago! These people probably don't even remember the petty shit that happened in school. They are married, they have kids and lives, and I'm the one who still holds on to that stuff. It's pretty crazy.
I've never been to any high school reunions, I rarely ever see any of my old friends when I go back to Maryland to visit my parents because I don't tell anyone I'm coming into town, I've done a really good job of isolating myself from my past, but now it's all coming back up - YUCK!
I also do this same thing in relationships. I keep a mental scorecard in my head of who calls who more often. I keep track of all the negative things he has ever done to me, even if it was totally inadvertent and he didn't even realize he did it. I remember every time I've been let down and then I sit with it. I let it fester, I let it build up and then I blow up one day about random bullshit that doesn't seem like it's a big deal, but because I didn't confront it and deal with it when it happened, it comes out in a totally inappropriate way.
So, I am undecided about this myspace thing. I'm thinking about shutting down my account because someone from my past just found me and when I say "found" I mean that this is a person I have worked very hard to get away from. This is a person that abused me phsyically and mentally for years and years and years. I'm so pissed that I let that stuff happen to me in the past and I'm MORE upset that he knows I'm living in Vegas now.
So, tell me, do you guys have any interesting, fun, exciting or scary tales about MySpace??