My New Job
The thing that I really liked about my new job was that I didn't have to sit up front, didn't have to deal with most of the typical administrative duties like answering phones and filing, and basically I was left alone and trusted to do my work. My duties were to write proposals and assist the president of the company. So, instead of sitting near the front of the office, I sat all the way in the back of the office, in front of the president's office. Perfect!!!!
So, the receptionist gets fired or quits, not really sure, they interviewed a couple of people and then they have a little meeting with us on Friday to let us know they aren't hiring a new girl, and I'm moving up front. I'm not the receptionist, but another girl is moving into her desk and I'm in turn moving into that girl's desk. Part of my responsibilities now will be to help answer the phones and all of that other bullshit that I didn't want to do. It sucks!
Not to mention, I have a smaller desk, I have to sit in the admin area which is kept about -10 degrees at all times because the office manager is probably going through menopause or something, and I'm going to freeze my ass off.
I'm not pleased. I've been pouting about it all weekend. I feel like I got demoted. I mean, I'm still making the same amount of money, but damn, this is not what I signed up for. I mean, whatever, I should be happy I have a job, and I am, but I had such a nice big desk and now I have a smaller one and I was really loving my role in the company and now I feel like a freaking secretary again. I have to help answer phones now - ugh - I have to sit next to the office manager and she watch my every key stroke all day long. It's not fair. If I thought it was hard to read blogs before, I was mistaken, there is now NO WAY IN HELL I can get away with being online. I'm surrounded by prying eyes now and I hate it.
Oh yeah, remember the camera I saw above my desk? After some further investigation I realized that they are all over the office and the office manager can pull up every single camera on her computer and she does all day long. She watches where everyone is walking and what they are doing and how long people are talking - it's ridiculous. Those cameras are not there "just in case" something happens, they are seriously there so that they can watch us at all times.
How come this company looked SO AWESOME on the outside and now I'm working there and I realize they are totally paranoid and creepy??
Oh, and here's the icing on the cake. When I first started there, I was friendly with the receptionist (the one that got fired) and the office manager sat me down and told me that she likes me a lot and I shouldn't hang out with the receptionist because they judge you by who you hang out with and she's not a very good worker and she wouldn't want people to assume the same thing about me. So, I stopped hanging out with her and I started having lunch with the girl in HR that hired me. I usually bring my lunch and we sit down at noon, have lunch in her office, chit chat and that's it. Do you know they counseled her on Friday afternoon about hanging out with me?! They said they didn't want us fraternizing at work, like, we could be friends outside of work, but we can't hang out at work - not even at lunch. UMMMM WHY? They are so fucked up. What's the big deal?
I had to go through a very stringent hiring process. I interviewed with like 5 different people and I beat out 50 other people for this job, so what is the problem with us hanging out? Do they not trust me? Do they not trust her? Do they think she's going to feed me personal HR information or something? This job gets weirder and weirder everyday.
Okay, on the upside, they changed my hours from 9 - 6 to 8 - 5. So, it won't be pitch black when I leave work and I will have more free time in the evenings to play poker online and go to meetings etc.
On the meeting front, as most of you know, I'm in recovery and I attend NA meetings a few times a week. So, lately, I've been feeling really disconnected, I haven't been hanging with my girls, I've been copping huge resentments against everyone and basically I've cut off everyone that is friends with "Drama Queen". During this process I realized that I'm not happy and I'm only hurting myself. So, I talked to my sponsor about it and I agreed to do a 30 in 30. That means that I'm going to 30 meetings in 30 days (one meeting everyday) so that I can get back into the groove, lose the attitude and be more involved. It's a good thing so I'm feeling really positive about it.
Don and I just watched Smokin Aces - crazy movie.