Another V-Day

Well, it's Valentine's Day. Last year I remember being in a meeting on a Wednesday night at the my homegroup and that's how I spent my Valentine's Day. Tonight - well, let's just say it's like that movie Groundhog Day. I'm repeating the same thing over and over again.

Tonight however is Thursday, so the meeting will be in a different location and I'm going to pick up my friend that is on house arrest awaiting trial and take her to the meeting with me. Nothing like doing something nice for someone else to get you out of your head and make you grateful for the blessings in your life today.

It'll be good times. I'm looking forward to spending some time with this girl because she's an amazing and strong woman. I honestly don't know if I was in her position, knowing I killed someone, knowing I was going to jail and knowing I have a lifetime of guilt to deal with - if I'd be able to stay clean.

Holy shit - I got high because I loved the feeling of being hi ght, but I also liked the feeling of not dealing with reality and temporarily forgetting about my problems, not dealing with life and turning my brain off for a while.

She was actually given the opportunity to go out and work while she's awaiting trial, so she's got a job at the mall.

Anyway, enough about that - my new boyfriend, Tim and I are celebrating Valentine's Day this weekend. He's going to take me to dinner someplace, I'm thinking it might be fun to head downtown to Fremont Street, do the whole tourist thing and check out someplace new.

On sunday my sponsor's daughter is in a beauty pageant. She's like 14 or something, this is her first pageant but I love that kind of shit. I WISH I would have done pageants when I was younger, but I probably would have NEVER won and that would have messed with my self esteem and it would be lower than it already is.

Anyway, I'm totally heading over there to support her in the pageant - should be good times.

They do like an evening gown round, an interview I think and also like a sportswear thing. No swimwear category which I think is a good thing.

So, tell me, what is everyone doing today to celebrate Valentine's Day?????? I think it's overrated and it sucks for people who are alone and it makes them feel like shit and it's really all about money.