Crabby Crabberson

I'm so tired. Seriously, I'm not a happy person when I'm woken up during the night and then I can't sleep. It's like a mind game. I know I have to go to work, so I immediately start stressing out because I was woken up and then I try so hard to go back to sleep but I'm mad that I was woken up in the first place and then I look at the clock and it's past midnight and I'm still awake and the little bit of drowsiness I was feeling is gone and replaced by anger because I'm still not asleep. And then I'm worried because I'm angry instead of tired and I know I need to sleep and then I count in my head how many hours until the alarm is going to go off and then I mentally pick out an outfit in my head to wear tomorrow because that will shave about 2 minutes off of my morning routine and then I start thinking about the muscle relaxers I have in the drawer from forever ago, but I hate the way they make me feel so I don't want to take them, but then I think maybe I should take them because they'd make me tired, but then I'd feel like shit in the morning if I took them and then I look at the clock and another 30 minutes has gone by and I'm no closer to falling asleep then I was about an hour ago and then I take some deep breaths and start counting sheep and then I think maybe I'll read something boring because that usually puts me to sleep and then.... the alarm goes off.

I cannot imagine having insomnia. I really feel for the insomniacs because I rarely ever have a night that I can't sleep. For the most part I'm a GREAT sleeper and I usually always wake up refreshed.

Anyway, enough about that.

I got the air conditioning fixed in my car about 3 weeks ago. I spent like $500 and it was worth every penny - until yesterday when it completely stopped blowing cold air all together. It was 105 degrees and I had no A.C. in my black car. It started on Sunday, I was leaving the Palms pool and the A.C. was blasting in my car and then all of a sudden warm air started blowing out and then a few minutes later it would get cold again and then it got warm again. This trend continued all through Monday and Tuesday and then yesterday the cold was completely gone and now only warm air comes out. Obviously I'll be taking it back to the shop, but I can't do that until Saturday and today it's going to be 107 degrees. UGH! No sleep and no air conditioning makes Carmen a very crabby girl. Cancer is my sign afterall.