Thursday, February 05, 2009

MIA

Sorry for the lack of posts. I've been a little MIA lately. You guys know that I usually don't slack off on my blogging, but unfortunately I've been in a major funk and when I get depressed it's hard for me to be creative.

As you know my company laid some people off a little over a month ago and I was lucky to make it through the first round of layoffs. Unfortunately, I wasn't so lucky about two weeks ago when they made the second round of layoffs. I got a tap on the shoulder and was told to come to the conference room along with a few other employees. We were given the boot and it just really sucks. Not only was I told that today would be my last day, but they insisted on escorting each one of us to our desks as if we were common criminals. I mean, ya know, I understand it's policy and everything, but what a shitty way to end things. So humiliating!

I really loved that job. I feel like I worked the hardest that I've ever worked and I gave that place my all. I felt so good about myself for not calling out sick and for showing up on time everyday and for always having a positive attitude at work. I just cant think of anything else I could have done better, so I'm just at a loss.

Whenever I fucked up in my personal life or I got in a fight with a friend or things didn't work out with a guy, I thought to myself "well, at least I still have my job". And now, I don't even have that to fall back on. I'm back at square one and I'm not feeling very hopeful.

I went to a meeting tonight and there were about 40 people there. I swear to you more than half of the room was unemployed at this time. Every other day I hear about another friend getting laid off and it's scary. I don't even know where to begin looking for jobs. I don't want to go through another year of learning a new job and then get laid off again.

I'm thinking maybe I'll try the medical fields since they seem to be in high demand. I dunno.

So, yeah, I'm depressed and sad and scared and life just isn't looking so bright for me right now.



I got a text from my friend David earlier tonight and he had two free tickets to the 'O' Cirque Show at the Bellagio for tonight. So, I met him over there for 10:30 show and I was not disappointed. I knew it was going to be awesome and it was. So, at least I got out of the house and shut my head down for a good hour and a half. I have to be honest, I had a hard time concentrating on the show and just letting loose because my head kept running.




I would recommend 'O' to anyone who hasn't seen it. It's a pretty amazing show. I've been wanting to see it since I moved here and I finally got my opportunity so that was a pretty cool thing.


At any rate, I know that things could be a lot worse and at least I'll be getting unemployment for quite a while. I think I can collect it for a whole year actually and then Obama might even be doing another extension so that's pretty cool.

And that's it folks. Hope you had a happy hump day.

18 Comments:

Blogger Wreggie said...

I'm so very sorry about your job loss.

To be a trusted employee one minute and an untrusted outsider the next is tough.

That is one great show. I saw the 10:30 show once, then went to the Prime Steak house.

I looked at my watch and it was like 2 AM or 5 AM back home when I realized I had been awake more than 24 hours.

February 05, 2009

 
Blogger Hurricane Mikey said...

Keep your chin up, Carmen. Everything will work out--it always does.

Maybe you become a poker pro and make millions!!!

February 05, 2009

 
Blogger SirFWALGMan said...

Keep positive Carmen. You will find something good. Sucks that they had to lay you off but you did everything right. Good luck in the job search. Get looking fast.. I can not beleive sitting around collecting unemployment would be good for you. Better than nothing but you need to keep busy. Anytime you want to chat I am on IM.

February 05, 2009

 
Blogger Tee aka The Diva's Thoughts said...

Oh darlin I am so very sorry. I am soooo sorry. It seems like everywhere I turn there are people I know losing their jobs. It's really horrible out here. Man I am really sorry.

Keep your head up though..I KNOW something will come up for you. You are smart, articulate, hard working and any place will be lucky to get you.

February 05, 2009

 
Blogger APOSEC72 said...

So sorry to hear what happened - happened to me when I left my old bank job, had the whole stand-in-front-of-my-cube-make-sure-I-don't-steal-a-stapler routine and it sucked to high heaven.

It was pretty tough to concentrate on things so I tried not to be home as much as possible so I wouldn't start feeling more mopey and depressed.

It'll work out...eventually. problem is none of us know when or how and that's really frustrating.

February 05, 2009

 
Blogger Jay said...

I've been laid a couple of times. Each time they had their security moron escort me from the building. It was kind of funny. I'm pretty sure I could have whipped each of them. LOL

I saw Mystere a few years ago. It was cool, but kind of weird. I never really figured out what the point of the whole thing was supposed to be.

Hang in there babe. You're pretty sharp so you'll find something soon!

February 05, 2009

 
Blogger LB said...

I know it sounds a bit corny but seriously you have stay positive and know that something better is out there for you!

Hug

February 05, 2009

 
Blogger Jennifer said...

I wish I had something original AND helpful to say but I don't have those healing words. It must be nice to know that you have your parents close to you now and you can always go get a hug! (That always helps me!)

You are a strong woman, and you'll be fine. Don't let this shake your confidence. It's not you, it's them!! (Truly!)

February 05, 2009

 
Blogger Richard said...

Sorry to hear that carmen, hope a new opportunity comes up soon.

February 05, 2009

 
Blogger PinkPiddyPaws said...

I'm really sorry to hear that sweetie! I wish I could help somehow. I know it's scary. Good luck!!

February 05, 2009

 
Blogger Tasha said...

Ugh, well no wonder why you're in a funk! This job stuff is such BS. I agree with the others- keep your chin up. Things happen the way they're supposed to. One door closes and a window opens...

BTW- I have always wanted to see O but still havent! I hear it's the best!

February 05, 2009

 
Blogger Dantana said...

Hey, jobs just get in the way of blogging, right?

February 05, 2009

 
Blogger So@24 said...

Eeek.

Sorry about the job loss. Guh, it's sad how many people are blogging about this.

February 05, 2009

 
Blogger SSC~ The Domestic Diva said...

I am so sorry to hear about your job. You have a very good work ethic. You know the economy is horrible but at least you gave it your all. I am sure you will get a good reference.

At least the bright side is you can get unemployment. I always try to look for the positive and maybe you can take this time to figure out what you really want to do and continue look for another dream job.

I know what its like to be depressed and hopeless. This to shall pass.

I am glad you went to the show and had a great time.

Its also good that you are writing your thoughts and turning to your friends while you are in need. I know this sounds corny, but God will not give you anything that you can't handle!!!!

Hang in there friend! :)

February 05, 2009

 
Blogger jjok said...

sorry to hear the bad news about your job. it will get better.....

Oh, and Jay got "laid a couple of times". Good job Jay! Um......I think he left off a word or something.

February 05, 2009

 
Blogger Terri said...

It really stinks Carmen. I feel for you, even tho I didn't lose mine this time, it could be real soon here. They walk people out like that here. Try being a well liked employee with 20 years with the company and being treated like that. It sucks royally. There's some bitter people out there that its happened too. Try not to be down about it, you'll find something and it just may possibly be better. Things happen for a reason (ok, now I'm sounding like a cliche book, sorry, I'll stop now!) but I'll be thinkin' about you, praying for something good to come your way.

February 06, 2009

 
Blogger Joe said...

I'm really sorry to hear about the layoff. I've been there and I know how rough - and scary - it can be. Even knowing that so many people are in the same boat doesn't help.

We'll keep you in our thoughts and prayers. Like SSC said, God never gives us more than we can handle. So if He gives you a lot to handle, take it as a compliment because it means that you can handle it.

February 06, 2009

 
Blogger BrainMc said...

Sorry to hear about getting laid off from your job. Good luck in your search for a new one. I hope you continue your success keeping yourself and your credit clean. These will be the tough times, but I'm sure it helps to have your family and friends so close now.

February 08, 2009

 

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