Okay, here we go. I need to vent and this is of course my favorite place to do a little venting. Let's discuss the word of the day kiddies - it's "Boundaries". Say it again "Boundaries".
That's right. Living with a new roommate is getting to be a sticky situation. The last roommate and I had a great relationship when it came to boundaries for the most part. Well, we had been through so much that there weren't tons of boundaries. He knew me better than I knew myself and that was cool. He could see right threw me. But, the good thing was that he loved having the office to himself. And I loved having the living room to myself. There were some nights when I would play poker online in the office with him and there were some nights that he would sit in the living room and watch T.V. with me, but whatever, we each had our own couches, there wasn't any weird touchy feely going on and it was completely comfortable situation.
So, moving on to the new roommate. He's driving me up the fucking wall. I don't like to be touched. I can't stand it. I really don't like when people invade my personal space. He doesn't get that. When I'm in the office playing on my computer, he stands behind me and shouts out "FOLD!!" or "GO ALL-IN" or "WHy didn't you call that?". Granted, he plays poker live quite often and he's a decent player and I"m sure that's a lot I could learn from him. But, I don't give a fuck. I want to play in the office by myself. I cannot stand when someone stands over my shoulder. And then, to make things worse, he takes it upon himself to rub my shoulders and touch my hair and whatever. They are little innocent things and I'm sure he doesn't think much of it. But, I can't fucking stand it. It literally makes my skin crawl.
My dad was worried when I moved in with this guy because he's like 57 years old or something, he's covered in tattoos, he's a recovering drug addict like me and the part that was worrisome is that he's practically letting me live here for free. He's only charging me $200 a month for EVERYTHING. That's utilities and everything included. It's really dirt cheap and I know that. So, does that mean I have to put up with this weird boundary stuff????? I don't think so. I'll move back home. I don't give a fuck.
Next, and this is a real doozy. I'm at the house yesterday and I decide to leave for a bit to meet a friend and roommate leaves to go play poker at Green Valley Ranch. So, I get this text from him and it says "On my way home - didn't want to surprise you". I'm thinking, um, why not? What do I care if you are on your way home earlier than expected? Then, I get a call from him. I don't answer, so it goes to voicemail and he says "Hey, just wanted to let you know I'm on the way home, I didn't want to catch you doing anything you shouldn't be doing". WHAT THE FUCK?? Seriously? What is there that I might be doing that I shouldn't be doing????? I'm a grown adult. Anything I choose to do is MY CHOICE! Why is he so worried about what I'm doing anyway? So, I ignore the message. Next, he gets home and sees that I'm not there. So, he texts me and says "do me a favor, give me a heads up when you are on your way home". So, he's just weirding me out now. So, I write back and I say "why do you need a heads up when I'm coming home?" and he's like "because I'm going to be watching porn and playing with myself".
I swear to god. He actually wrote that to me. BOUNDARIES DUDE! Jesus! I don't want to fucking hear that shit. I really don't. I'm so very uncomfortable with this whole situation now.
Of course, I let him know when I was on my way home. I almost didn't come home. But, when I got there, we just went on like usual and pretended nothing happened.
So, then this morning I'm playing online and drinking a monster like I always do in the morning and he keeps coming in and bugging the shit out of me. He's asking me stupid fucking questions. He's giving me gay ass weather fucking reports for the week. Then, I'm reading blogs and leaving commetns and he's just standing behind me leaning on my chair, watching me leave comments. I turn around and gave him the weirdest, nastiest fucking look I could conjure at 9 in the morning and he goes "oh sorry" and leaves the room. Finally.
And, that's when I started typing this post.
As soon as I'm done, I'm leaving the house for the day, going to my parent's house to chill, and then my mom and I are going to pick out a new T.V. for me to put in my bedroom. The one I had was too big and it just wouldn't work. So, we are going to get me a nice flat screen or something and get that all settled in my room and then I'll have my own little inner sanctuary. I will be watching my own T.V. in my own room and shit, I might even try to figure out a way to put my computer in there so that I never have to leave or open the door. ha ha
Just kidding. I know that this needs to be resolved. I can't hide out in my room all the time.
I really do think that he is lonely and just wants a buddy. I'm assuming he think's I"m the type of buddy he just tell anything to. Like, in the past before I ever lived here he told me stories about getting prostitutes and whatever. He's never hit on me per say. I mean, he says I'm like his little sister and he's never made an actual move on me. Although, I think some would say that him constantly touching me and invading my space is a form of hitting on someone.
I may be naive, but I think he just wants a friend and doesn't understand boundaries. Or at least, I'm hoping that's what it is. Surely, he can't think he can treat me in an uncomfortable way just because of the cheap rent I am paying. Can he? I seriously don't know.