Sunday, December 25, 2011


Merry Christmas kiddies!!

I just opened my gifts and I really liked them all. My parents totally hooked it up like always. I got these really cute sketchers sneakers. I was in dire need of a new pair and I wasn't really picky about the color or anything so this is what I got. I think they are hella cute...

I also got a cute new sweatsuit. It's black and pink. I love those two colors together. I got some new perfume. A boxed set called sexual fresh. I love it...

I know I got some more stuff, but I can't think of it right now. And it's time for dinner.

So, other than that, i've just been doing the do. I've had a few minor setbacks but nothing too major. Hope everyone has a safe holiday.

Monday, December 19, 2011

back to the trudgery...

So, I had a really good weekend and got a lot done - especially a lot of christmas shopping with my dad and uncle. FYI... shopping isn't all that fun when you don't have any money. go figure.

I'm starting week eight at Salvation Army today. It's just flying along. I just got out of the shower and not feeling all that hot. I can hear like two different roommates hacking up a lung so I know I'm not the only sick one in this house. Hate that.

I went to the movies and saw The Sitter this weekend. Very cute. I enjoyed it. The Ravens lost yesterday and that was very disappointing but at least we clinched a spot in the playoffs.

And, well, I dunno. The creative juices are not flowing right now so I'll just write more later.

Thursday, December 15, 2011

quick one

MMMMM kay. Tomorrow is Friday. I'm chilling at the crib right now. We had a house meeting tonight, I'm trying to get my ipod to charge but it's pissing me off. I had it charging all night on the computer last night and then I wake up today and I'm like listening to the freaking thing on the bus and I get the message that the battery is low and I'm not even to school yet. What the hell????? I dunno what's up with this thing. But, I don't like it.

Well, I'm trying again tonight and we'll see what happens. My new phone is the shit and I have unlimited music downloads on it, but that battery dies too quick too.

Anyway, the crazy girl from class is moving back into this house tomorrow. She called here tonight and talked to me and the manager. So, I'm thinking this should be pretty interesting.


Wednesday, December 14, 2011

um, i dunno, really, dunno

So, my uncle flew in for the holidays today. He's only staying at the house for like two weeks and then he's heading back to Michigan, so here's the deal with that... My parents have a two bedroom house and of course my room is the guest bedroom, but when he leaves I'm moving back in with them. It's just a little too expensive for me to be living in this sober house paying $130 a week when I could be staying with my parents for free. Especially since I really can't work right now due to my intensive day treatment program. So, it's good and bad cause I do really like living here, but obviously my parents live in a way nicer place and my room is the bomb and my bed is super comfy and right now I'm sleeping in a freakin bunk bed. But, I'll miss the roommates because it's pretty fun living here and the people are all pretty cool and stuff. Another good thing is that my parents live way closer to salvation army and there's no bus stop anywhere near the house so they really can't expect me to take the bus (like I am now). In case you are wondering, I still have a car but my parents turned the tags in last time I was in jail. I'll be getting it back soon i hope.

I met crazy legs at school today. She's nice, but definitely out there. I spent a good part of the day trying to figure out if she's high or not. Sometimes people are so burnt out that they seem high but they've just done a lot of damage to themselves and the brain cells take quite a while to regenerate.

So, anyway, I don't really have anything interesting to say tonight so I'm gonna look on craigslist and see if I can find a job. I have my room all to myself tonight cause my roommie Teresa is staying at a friend's house so yay! I like playing the music loud and just watching whatever I want on T.V.



Okay, so on to Wednesday...

As we all know it's my busy busy day. I set my alarm yesterday for six and forgot to set it back to 5:45 today but I woke up and got ready, showered, hair's a little wet still but I'm about ready to leave so it's all good. It's weird because i swear if I set my alarm earlier and give myself plenty of time, I tend to waste a bunch of time getting ready and have to run out the door. But, if I get up a tiny bit late I'm able to rush around, and still get everything done in time to just kind of walk out the door without being late or even having to run really.

Anyway, we got a new girl at school and she used to live in this house apparently. They call her "crazy legs" cause she was totally out there. I never met here at the house, but she looks kind of beat up from all the meth use. I didn't get to talk to her yesterday cause I had an appointment that took forever and I got to class late and she had to leave early to see her probation officer. Anyway, just whatever, I gotta get out the door now cause I'm wasting time.

Happy hump day kids!

Sunday, December 11, 2011

Back to whatever...

what's up kids????????????

It's Sunday night - woot!!

The Ravens killed it today! Let's go Ravens Let's go.

Okay, my weekend was good. It flew by as quickly as if I was going to work tomorrow or something. Well, ya know, Salvation Army isn't a job, but it's a place I have to go to early in the morning and spend the whole day there, so it's like my job for now. I'm starting week 7 I think. I forget. I'm ahead in my work so I'm either on Week 8 or Week 9 assignments so now I'm confused as to which week I'm actually in. Well, my last day is supposed to be january 20th and I'm graduating on stage on January 27th.

So, this is super duper crazy. I'm at Salvation Army on Friday and this guy is holding open the door for me and I thanked him and then I got a good look at him and I realized he looked really familiar. I'm like "hey, I think I know you" and he's like "I know you too" and I thought about it a second and I realized this is the guy that i first started using really heavily with here in Vegas about 3 or 4 years ago. He was really young at the time and I barely recognized him because he's so much more healthier and grown up looking. I gave him a huge hug and told him I was so happy that he was alive cause I really wasn't sure what had happened to him. He said he had seen me before but wasn't sure if it was me. So, we've been texting back and forth this weekend cause he's in his last phase and gets to go home on the weekends and I used to hangout at his house a lot so I know his mom and his brother. I was kind of scared to do it. But, I knew his brother was even worse off than we were so I finally asked him about him. He told me that his brother did the salvation army program too and graduated. When he left, he got high again and overdosed and died. SHIT. I felt so bad about that. I had a really bad feeling about him actually and that's why I hadn't asked him about his brother. So sad. and very crazy. That actually happens to a lot of people though. They stop using for a while and then they go back out and overdose because the tolerance has gone down a lot and that's never a good thing.

So, my roommate just came home with a rental car and she said she's leaving tonight. She's in the room packing her stuff. I feel like I should be in there watching her to make sure she doesn't steal anything, but she's way cool and I haven't had any issues with either of the roommates, but she's the one that snores so that's a good thing. At least I won't have to deal with that anymore. Good times. Now it's just down to me and one other girl again.

Well, it's almost time for the big house meeting ( we have one on Monday and Thursday nights ) and I'm harassing the shit out of one of the guys that lives here so I gotta run.

Thursday, December 08, 2011

quick one

Okay, don't have much time to write. I have to leave this house in abou 10 minutes so that I can go see my probation officer. I see at 7 a.m. cause it's just easier to get it out of the way. Oh shit. I have to fill out this form right now before I forget. I already got the money order. Oh yeah, there's fees involved. I have to pay probation 30 dollars a month and drug court 12 dollars a week. I'm not even going to tell you how much I have to pay North Las Vegas and the City of Las Vegas. But, honestly, I could make a full time job out of running around to pay off all my fines, well, that and cashing in my slot play all over town. I rarely even get to do any of that stuff cause of everything else on my plate (the slot play stuff).

Anyway, drug court was good yesterday. I was in the A Box and all my tests were clean. yay!!

gotta go!

Monday, December 05, 2011

Off the chain

So, how was everyone's weekend?????? Mine was great. I just kept really busy like always. Busy is very good for me. I went to my homegroup Saturday and Sunday, saw my sponsor, went to the Salvation Army graduation Friday night which was very nice (saw a few people from my class graduate on stage and what not), and went to the swap meet on sunday with my mom. It was awesome. I've never been to the "Fabulous Indoor Swapmeet" here in town but there was lots of good stuff for nice and cheap. Love that. I had some free slot play over the weekend too so I took advantage of that as well.

Today in class, you know, pretty much more of the same. Nothing too exciting. Oh yeah, well, I got a bunch of tests taken a few weeks ago (medical stuff) and they all came back negative so I was very pleased about that. Oh, and I woke up an hour late today cause my alarm just didn't go off at all. Ugh. I was going to be very late but luckily I managed to get a ride so I made it right on time.

Well, I should be honest, not everything is sunshine and roses all the time. Im happy for the most part but I find myself flying off the handle every so often, for instance, today in class, this new guy, Mario, wanted to move up next to me even though he usually sits on the other side of the room. He moved up closer to me because he wanted to be near the door. The teacher hadn't dismissed us yet because, well, who knows. We are all court ordered to be there from 8 - 4 everyday. Now, most of the time we get out at 3 and there's a few people (including him) that want to sit there and freakout whenever we get out after 3. So, he's whining and moaning and complaining and getting this huge attitude about the teacher not coming out of his office to dismiss us. So, I let him know point blank that we are lucky to get out at 3 sometimes but that we don't have to be let out until 4 so if we get out early it's a bonus and he shouldn't even be making plans for any earlier than 4. He wants to start a bunch of shit with me and 4 other people jumped on the bandwagon telling me to mind my own business and I'm like "you know, you are the one that moved up here next to me to start complaining in my ear and if you don't like what I have to say move back to your seat" and then I got more shit talking in my ear and I finally got up and went into the teacher's office cause I was about to really lose it. I guess when I got up a fight almost broke out because my friend Mike went off on them for ganging up on me and told them they weren't right and whatever, I dunno, I just know that tomorrow is going to be interesting. I'm gonna try to let it go but who knows.

So, that's it for me. Time to make some dinner and watch some Family Guy! woot

Another Ravens win this weekend!!!!!!! WAZZZZZUP????????!!!!!!!!

Friday, December 02, 2011

I dunno...

Well, it's Friday! That's a good thing although I don't mind the weekdays anyway. I actually enjoy going to Salvation Army everyday. It's the group of people I'm in class with. We have so much fun. We laugh and carry on all day. It's sort of like being in high school again without all the mean girls that made fun of me. ha ha

Anyway, did I tell you guys about my new homegroup? It's called Not High at Noon which is very funny because that's the name of the homegroup I was VERY involved in when I was living in Florida and that's the place where I met MiamiDon. He moved back to Ft. Lauderdale now and is doing really well and is actually working at a treatment center. So, we still talk quite a bit. I'm glad.

Anyhoo, my new meeting is everyday, but my sponsor (Hilary) said if I just attended once a week or on the weekends for now that's fine because obviously I have a lot on my plate. When Salvation Army is over, I'll obviously have more time on my hands even though I still have three counseling sessions a week or something at Choices, but I won't be there all day like now. I'll actually be able to get a job and stuff, but I'm gonna make it a point to go to that meeting every single day whenever possible.

I'm starting week 6 at Salvation Army next week and it's a 12 week program so I'm just about halfway there. There's also one other thing I'm contemplating and it's a vocational program that Salvation Army has on their campus. The good part is that you can live on campus for free and they feed you everyday and they send you to class and teach you how to get a job and build a resume and all that good stuff and then when you do get a job, they take $130 out of your check every week and put it in a money order in your name so that you have a bunch of cash to get an apartment or whatever when you leave. I mean, obviously it's just like a savings account and I could do that myself, but I never do so it would be nice to have someone else doing it for me without me having a choice.

See, I can do something like that or move back home with my parents. Because where I'm staying now is $130 a week and my parents are obviously paying for it because I have no income. The part I'm worried about is that I'm over qualified for that program. I mean, I do have an associates degree, I've had many jobs and I know how to make a resume in fact, I did my teacher's resume for him the other day and he was so thankful. It's not like it's hard.

So, I'll just get some information on it and see what happens. I'm just worried about the job search in general because I do have a felony right now. It's going to turn into a gross misdemeanor down the road when I finish everything, but right now it shows up as a felony (i think). Not even really sure.