How the tables have turned

I love having Sunday and Monday off work! So, today I'm going to the noon meeting and then I'll be having dinner with my parents around 4:30 pm. Yes, we really eat dinner that early. I dunno why. The three of us are playing in the Poker Palace Tournament at 6:30 tonight. I'm looking forward to it. I really enjoy that tourney. I've been spending way too much money on stupid ass slot machines lately. After tonight I'm going to take a few days off from the casino. I'm a firm believer that luck comes in streaks. So, usually, when I'm hot I'm really winning and and on the other hand, when when I'm losing I'm REALLY losing. So, switching casinos or machines or whatever just doesn't seem to work because I'm going to keep losing no matter what.

Anyway, there's this girl that I used to be in Salvation Army with. She came in about 6 weeks after me and I did not care for her. The main reason is because she snitched on me to my boss her first day there. She went out of her way to tell on me for sitting down in the warehouse on her first day!!!!! I was pissed. I cussed her out and called her a snitch and I'm not proud of this behavior but I was mean to her the whole rest of our time there and I even tried to turn people against her. I was not a very nice person when I was a client. I've grown a lot since then. Anyway, this particular girl actually stayed clean and I ran into her a few times in the past year at meetings and I made amends with her. I got her number and even called her a few times because I can admit when I'm wrong and it was nice to see someone I was in-patient with actually staying clean. Most everyone else relapsed.

So, last week I was up at the front desk and she was there and she was crying and she apparently relapsed and got into some trouble with her probation officer and she was trying to get back into the Salvation Army program. I hugged her and told her to see my boss because he has a lot of pull and he could probably help her get back in without much of a wait. The waiting list is a few months long normally. My boss and his memory are uncanny. He actually remembered that I didn't like her and he shared something with me...

She was actually his first choice for my job. He tried to get a hold of her and she never responded so that's when he offered me the job. UGH! That was a little difficult to hear. But, truth be told, she was a very hard worker when we were in the program together. I was a hard worker too, but she jumped in day one and embraced the warehouse and all of the girls. I was a little slower. I kind of fought it and had a negative attitude at first. I came around but it took a while.

Anyway, I'm sure she would have done a good job in my position but she didn't stay clean and I did. That's pretty much what it all boils down too. So, when she gets back into the program I will be her boss. I'm working really hard on being a better person. I'm trying to be more humble, more grateful and more empathetic with the other girls. I tend to be very black and white and kind of no nonsense. It's a process that's for sure.

Well, I gotta get ready.  Happy Monday to all!