Monday, April 14, 2014


Hey guys!  Another Monday is upon us.  Ugh.  It's annoying how FAST the weekend goes by.  Oh lord.  I did get a lot accomplished though.  I got my 2nd paycheck on Friday, so I put half in the bank and then I went shopping on Saturday and bought like three new outfits!  Does anyone else know about Steinmart and love it as much as I do?????  It sounds crappy like Kmart or something., but it's actually a very nice department store with a REALLY great shoe department.

Anyway, I also worked out both Saturday and Sunday and I laid by the pool for about 40 minutes each day.  I finally got a sponsor - I asked my friend Jen to be my sponsor and I think it 's going to work out really well.  I'm going to have one year clean on May 15th so that'll be fun!

This morning I had to see my PO at 7 a.m. and it's always a huge source of anxiety for me because I have to be at work at 8 a.m. and I'm always worried that I'll be late.  I made it to work on time though and everything went well at the Parole Office.  I only have 4 more weeks of my Sunday counseling sessions so that makes me happy :)

And, the best thing about my weekend is that I won first place in the poker tournament last night at the clubhouse!!!!!!  I love winning!  What a great feeling.  The cash was nice too :)

Thursday, April 10, 2014

One more day

Well, it's Throwback Thursday again!  I get really into it.  I dig out all of the old photos and spend hours on end scanning in pics and uploading them to google plus and then I put them on facebook all throughout the day.  It's a good time.  I enjoy it.

Anyway, I've been working out everyday this week.  So proud of myself.  I knew it would  make me feel good and I knew I'd be happier if I worked out, but it was so hard for me to just do it.  Luckily, there are a few girls at work that decided they wanted to workout at lunch and so every Monday, Wednesday  and Friday we workout in the conference room (mainly strength training - a lot of squats and lunges and we use the bands and stuff) - and then I go home at night and workout at the the gym doing the treadmill and elliptical.  So far so good.  Next step is to stop drinking sodas.  I know they are the worst.  I will never lose any weight if I keep drinking a coke or two every single day.  But, oh my god I love them.  They are so good.

I joined that stupid Plenty of Fish site and I hate it.  I dunno why.  It's just not my thing.  I hate the awkwardness of going out to meet people that I don't know and I'm just uncomfortable with it.  My friend talked me into it cause she met her husband on there, but I think I'm gonna cancel my account.  At least it was free so whatever.

I'm back to listening to Adam Carolla podcast at work all day everyday.  I have so many years to catch up on.  He also has one with Dr. Drew.  I just love them.  I think they are so funny.

One more day til the weekend and until I get another paycheck!!

Monday, April 07, 2014

Tough One

Well, another Monday is upon us.  My my my how fast the weekends fly by.  So, over the weekend, a friend of mine from High School flew into Vegas to see the American Country Music Awards and I haven't seen her in twenty years and she wanted to meet up.  So, I did it.  I was nervous.  I really don't ever see anyone from high school except for on Facebook.  Mainly because they all live in Maryland still, but there's also that sense of shame, humiliation and guilt that I feel for all of the crazy partying and who knows what that I did when I was still there.

The hardest part about seeing this girl was the fact that we were both recruited in high school to work at the NSA and of course, like most people who have an amazing opportunity to work for the government, she not only kept her job, but she got her degree, became an agent and is now chief of whatever, GS 14 and doing really really well in life.  I'm happy for her.  She's an awesome girl and deserves good things.

Of course, there's a big part of me that is sad for myself.  I mean, losing my clearance was the most devastating thing that has ever happened to me and it's just hard to deal with even after all of these years.

That being said, we had an awesome time, we at at Mon Ami Gabi and watched the Bellagio Fountains and the day was sunny and beautiful and I'm really glad we got to see each other.  It was a great time.

Last night I played poker with the old folks, I came in 4th place which happened to be the bubble so I was no pleased.  UGH.  There is nothing worse than going out on the bubble.  I hate that shit.

Well, anyway, it's a pay week and I'm happy about that.  Gonna get a space heater for my office and probably buy a new outfit or two.

Thursday, April 03, 2014


Last night I met my friend Jen at a meeting in Summerlin.  It was great.  I knew a lot of people there.  Amazing how I relapse and disappear for years on end and then I come back to recovery meetings and a lot of the same faces are STILL there.  Crazy how that works huh??  I met Jen a few years back when she first moved to Las Vegas.  I introduced her to people and picked her up and took her to meetings.  Well, she stayed clean and now she has 6 years.  She got married and everything.  If only I would have stayed clean too I'd have more than 6 years.  But, oh well.  Can't live in the past.   She caught me up on all the NA gossip.  Of course I missed a lot but now I think I'm thoroughly caught up :-)

I really don't have anything too exciting to talk about.

This is a crazy story that I've been obsessed with because it literally happened two streets away from my house....

A search for a missing mother and daughter in North Las Vegas has uncovered a gruesome crime scene leading to a family member's arrest.
Police believe Darius Davon Sorrells, 30, killed his mother and sister then butchered at least one of their bodies before living in their home for days as their remains decomposed.
Natasha Sorrells, 34, and Janice Burden, 53, identified by the Las Vegas Review-Journal, had not been heard from since around Wednesday when an officer visited their home early Monday.
Though police had repeatedly visited the home over the weekend to make contact with the women, this time they reported finding a backdoor left open.
"Without going into great detail, there is a lot of evidence," Sgt. Chrissie Coon said at a Monday afternoon press conference, according to the Journal.
Coon described it as a "pretty gruesome homicide," with at least one victim dismembered. The weapon used has not been identified but police said it was not a gun.

"It appears, based on the timeframe and the evidence in the house that the murder suspect was probably in the home with these women deceased for several days," Coon said. "Steps were taken to try to clean up the crime scene and contain evidence."
Once authorities were able to identify the bodies they then went to work looking for Sorrells' brother and Burden's son.
Fortunately for police they found him already behind bars on an unrelated traffic charge from over the weekend.
In that early Saturday morning incident he was allegedly seen driving drunk by police, leading to a wild chase. Sorrells crashed into a light pole as police tailed him and he was captured after attempting to flee on foot.
"It was unclear at the time why he ran from police," said Coon. Also unclear on Tuesday was a motive for the slayings.

Monday, March 31, 2014

Weird right??

So, I got my first paycheck on Friday and it was even bigger than I had calculated.  We don't have state taxes out here in Nevada so that makes a nice difference.  I got my nails done on Saturday - they look so cute!  I went shopping and spent some money, but I also put a nice chunk aside for savings.  Aren't I just the epitome of responsibility?!  ha ha  They should just put a picture of me next to "responsible" in the dictionary.  ha ha

Anyway, I played poker with the old folks both Friday and Sunday.  Had a good time but didn't win any money.  I did win third place a week ago so that was nice.

Here's a weird situation....

I go to counseling on Sundays.  It's mandated by P&P, but I don't mind going anyway.  They charge us for counseling services on a sliding scale, so at first I didn't have to pay cause I made no money, but now that I have a job, I pay 20 bucks every Sunday.  So, yesterday my counselor calls me into her office and asks me to borrow $20.  I couldn't believe it.  I told her I could lend her the money, but then I wouldn't be able to pay my counseling fee and she said that was fine.  She would credit me for the week and for next week too. Works for me.  Weird though right????

I'm working out at lunch with a few other girls today.  We are working out in the conference room on Monday, Wednesday and Fridays.  I think it's just the motivation I need to start getting healthier.

Happy Monday!

Wednesday, March 26, 2014


WOW!!  This is too much for me....

Fifteen years in the slammer and he apparently still has no sole.
A little more than 24 hours after a New Jersey man was freed from prison for robbing a shoe store he returned to the same store and committed the same act again, according to police.
Christopher M. Miller was arrested Saturday after allegedly reenacting the same crime he committed at the Stride Rite store in Toms River in 1999.
Police say the 40-year-old took a bus from Atlantic City to the store — approximately 50 miles away — where he ordered its two employees to empty the register and hand over their cell phones.
After grabbing $389 from the register he allegedly ordered them to the back of the store which, unlike the first time they were robbed, they refused. In that 1999 incident the employees were tied up.  Miller took off on foot with the cash and three phones before police spotted him a few blocks away.
Police said the stolen money was found hidden in a gutter downspout and the employees' cell phones in a garbage can with the help of a K9.
He was charged with robbery and held at the Ocean County jail on $100,000 bail.

Tuesday, March 25, 2014


This story is interesting on two levels.....  First, it's really heartwarming that a 9 year old girl would think enough of her friend to shave her head.  Those parents must be really proud.  Second of all, I cannot believe this stupid school suspended  her or whatever because of a "dress code".  Makes me sick.

A 9-year-old girl who was banned from school for shaving her head to support a friend with cancer was back in class Tuesday after reports of the disciplinary action surfaced.
A staff member from Caprock Academy in Grand Junction told that the school is happy to have the student back and its board of directors is holding a closed meeting later tonight about the situation. reported that school officials told the student, Kamryn, she couldn't come back to class without a wig or until her natural hair grew back because her shaved head violates the school's dress code. 
With her parents' approval, Kamryn shaved her head in support of her friend, 11-year-old Delaney, who is battling neuroblastoma, a childhood cancer, and recently started chemotherapy.
"It felt like the right thing to do," Kamryn told
Delaney's mom, Wendy Campbell, told the station she was surprised Caprock Academy refused to let Kamryn in because of the dress code.
"I didn't realize that hair was such an important aspect of a child at school," Campbell said. "For a little girl to be really brave and want to shave her head in support of her friend, I thought that was a huge statement and it builds character in a child," 
In a statement to, Catherine Norton Breman, president and Chair of the academy's board of directors, said the dress code "was created to promote safety, uniformity, and a non-distracting environment for the school's students. Under this policy, shaved heads are not permitted." 
Delaney said she was happy to have her friend's support. 
"It makes me sad because she was really happy to go back to school and show people what she did, but now that she didn't get to, she's kind of sad," Delaney told
The school's board of directors will meet Tuesday night to discuss this situation and the policy. A staff member from the school told that the school is happy to have the student back.